I've been waking up the past many mornings always feeling tired. Often I'll wake up once after about 4-8 hours of sleep and then I'll go back to sleep because I'm so tired. I'll wake up again and still feel tired. This really started to happen right at my transition away from that almost complete lack of emotion and nihilism. I've definitely been feeling better during the day, but somethings happening in my sleep that I can't explain. Dream patterns aren't any stranger than normal.. sleeps just been worse.

A couple years ago I tried an experiment... several variations of the "uberman" sleep cycle. Four hours at a time worked well for me, but ultimately my body couldn't handle it and I understood that because of the amount of physical activity in my day that I probably needed more sleep. Well the one pleasant side effect of that semi-successful experiment is that since then I've been able to control my sleep to a certain extent - pretty much anywhere after getting four hours of sleep I can tell my body almost the exact moment to wake up. For example.. It's 2300 on Saturday.. I have to wake up at 0600 on Sunday. Normally my body would not respond to much at all at that time, even an alarm clock, BUT just thinking about it before I go to sleep, recognizing the current time and calculating how much time it is until I wake (sometimes my body actually does that for me) allows me to wake up pretty much on the minute.

One of the major problems I had with this is that sometimes my body would *think* that I have to wake up at a certain time when really it didn't. At the beginning especially once I found out I could do this I had a really big problem with looking at the clock by my bed and then thinking about other times and I would end up waking up at those times. One of the biggest problems I had were the days when I did have to wake up and I ended up waking up way too early because my clocks are all wrong (in my room I never used to reset my clocks.. be it a daylight savings time hour off or 6 hours and 17 minutes off, I just never set them and always got used to what time it really was during the day.. my mind just automatically adjusted the time in my head). For quite awhile there I had to go to bed and make quite an effort to NOT look at the clock. Anyway, so basically I had to start setting all my clocks to the right time.
So this worked for quite awhile. I could sleep as long as I wanted to or wake up as soon as I wanted. I'd usually wake up feeling pretty refreshed too. I think that maybe my mind was helping my body know that I'd need to wake up at a certain time and would automatically adjust my REM cycle to where it really needed to be, sort of like how your body does that for when you wake up at the same time every day.. it just eventually figures it all out.

Anyway.. so now something is fucked up. I can still control my sleep and wake up whenever I want, but I'm also constantly waking up when I don't want to usually about 6 hours in. When I do finally wake up I feel much more tired than I used to when I woke up too. During the day I still have a really good amount of energy - possibly even more than I did before having this problem, but it still bothers me that I'm waking up and always feeling super tired right as I get out of bed no matter how much more I've slept.